Hope.

I have been taking walks on the strand with a friend of mine, Ashley. Tonight's conversation: emotional. But the night brought relief and hope. To Manhattan Beach and back, we concluded our walk at the end of the Hermosa pier. Before me, a vast ocean so difficult to grasp, but as I stood still and silent, the ocean reminded me of this one simple thing: that life goes on.

I panned my view and was awe struck by this incredibly beautiful body of water that never stops going. Its waves, its movement, continuous. Each break, each variation, are us. You, me. And I realized, we must keep going. Its imperative because life keeps going. The sun was low, gleaming off of the water. Speckles of silver shimmered in all directions. And I realized, sometimes life has these moments that glimmer so magnificently, and other times the sun is hiding, there is no light and there is little hope. But the sun is perpetually doing what it needs to as well and eventually, it comes out again to reflect its light on those breaks and variations of the waves. Its a natural cycle. You just need to move forward and trust the process that takes places in spite of your circumstances.

I believe that every thing and every one is interconnected. I believe that every single thing has a purpose. I believe that in a sense, we are are mirror images of one another, and of our environment and the things that surround us. Maybe thats why I was able to find this connection, this symbolism between the beings of this world and the ocean. Maybe it was just conjured up to comfort me.

In less than 10 minutes, these thoughts were realized in my mind. Some how, it gave me hope. If I have hope, I have strength to move forward. If I can move forward, then I am okay. Even though the things I saw in the ocean are very simple and known, I think the fact that I was reminded of these basic realities through the ocean, made it more compelling. Maybe because of what it represents to me. Strength, freedom, peace. It is so powerful and mighty. Like God. And you know what, I believe that God speaks to us through various means. Even the ocean.

This is what I came away with tonight. So, I will keep moving forward and holding onto the glimmers that I can, that I have been blessed with.

unknown.

my mind understands balance yet my body churns. my heart is weakened by each moment of each thought. happens each day, and every part of me rots.

undeniably absurd, but the vision is skewed. enough that it repeats itself, desperate for help.

feelings that linger, and lurk though the hours. they have too much power.

i consume. it consumes me.

all is fading, im failing.

You're the one I choose.

[1/10 I wanted.]

Will arrive at my front door Feb. 8th.

Hallelujah.

What I truly want.

I want to be on my own.

I want to f l y ...

... and roam.

Politics, Schmolitics.

Yes, you have that freedom to choose-

but understand, a side means separation,

with that comes condemnation.

Your condemnation causes sides to collide.

There's no peace in that, there's no progress in that.

You want to move forward, well don't just verbally attack.

Transcend this hate and move past the politics,

because no one is right, why can't that ever click?

Its a tug of war and you're so righteous in your thought,

you don't realize, that compassion is your only shot,

at changing minds to change direction,

to change this world without someone's objection.

You want to quote Gandhi, well live what you speak,

like when it comes to Democrats or Republicans,

don't hate on the side which you feel is "weak"....

maybe even stupid, confused or ignorant....

but then obviously you didn't understand what Gandhi's words meant.

This is what I don't agree with, forget the red and blue,

it's how people treat each other, like they haven't got a clue-

of what love is, of what community is...

of what a nation united is..

Its sad and it makes me livid, makes me not want to be involved,

because we waste time bickering and nothing is solved.

So tell me, why should I take your side,

when everyone handles themselves without any pride.

Disregard for respect, for integrity.

I'm not joining in because this hate is not for me.

You think your status updates on F.B,

your false facts from the news,

make you better than the other, sorry- you're just as confused.

I don't care if its CNN or FOX, the media isn't reliable,

when everyones an "expert" on how to run this country-

for me thats just not plausible,

since all minds are so damn pliable.

I'm going to pray for this nation and hope for the best,

and also hope that you can see all of this clashing,

is not how we put issues to rest.

It's not how we unite and join arms,

It's not helping us, it's doing more harm.

Home sweet home.

Peace.

Her soul was strong and spirit persistent.

Weathered heart, she knew what life meant.

In search of something even she did not know,

looking to dreams, with nothing to show.

Caught in life's cycle, an on going disease,

wanting nothing more, than to break free.

With each day, she found new inspiration,

to keep on, without a hint of hesitation.

Because her soul was strong and spirit persistent.

Weathered heart, she knew what life meant.

Finally one day, every part of her felt fulfilled.

The universe spoke back and peace was instilled.