I'll find my way.

A wanderer is not always lost,
And your heart is traveling still.
The journey is one too beautiful,
Lit with mistakes that didn’t kill.

-N

Easier said, than done.

This is completely contradicting my first post..but if the world were perfect.....

I am realizing that it is okay to heal. No matter what the circumstances are or were- whether it was your fault, his fault or life's fault- you deserve to let go of it and heal.

Move forward.

If you do not relinquish your pain, you will not be able to unleash the incomprehensible amount of love in your soul to the world...to another heart.

Another being.

Not wholly at least.

-But if it is not all, then it is nothing.

Most people are afraid to be vulnerable. Its understandable.

I am always afraid.

To put yourself out there means that if it comes crashing down in the end- you will actually feel it.

But thats what's beautiful.

That you'll feel. That you'll know.

That you can hold onto that and essentially have something that is (absolutely) tangible to reflect on. To learn from. To grow from.

What is the point in only revealing a portion of your heart.

A portion of your soul.

If it begins to leak- just let it pour.

These defense mechanisms do not protect you. In the long run, they'll ruin you even more than actually feeling the pain and hurting for that moment in time.

To be vulnerable, to open up- is not to ask for pain. It is not to be weak.

It is to give a gift.

Not all are deserving.

I am not- but I still want to know your soul...

because its beautiful.

To feel is to live. To feel pain is a part of knowing you're alive.

Anyone can smile. Anyone can laugh.

But to be strong enough to let the depths of you burn....to let yourself go ....to eventually heal- then you know you're alive and living....

because you have healed.

Twisted, I'm sure.

-N

Random thoughts.

I am constantly reminded of beauty everyday.

I experience it. I feel it.

To feel it, I open up my heart.

Look, feel, try.

It's there. I promise.

I wish I could always say what was on my mind- what was on my heart. How incredible it is to express what you feel 100%,

no hesitations, no alterations.

I think it's a good thing but society disagrees.

There's a time, a place and a limit. As much as I want to go against this and not conform- I can't.

I hate these restrictions of the heart.

I can hear you breathe each breath.

Its taking me away.

-N